There's something fundamentally wrong with being so very elated every time Friday afternoon comes around. What's wrong is that every moment should be elation, not only two days of bliss and five days of subjugation. I find thankfulness in knowing that I am never too comfortable in corporate life, and this propels me to work harder at getting acting jobs and finishing albums and being creative for happiness and financial stability. It can, and does, happen for others. I still have belief that it will happen for me. Even when every door has been shut tight for a long time, I still know there will be an opening eventually. Call it blind faith, call it stupidity. What I really need is a good blowtorch.