feeling better. who knows what could happen? sometimes am overwhelmed by my inability to act. feel like hamlet and i'm not sure what i'm waiting for. getting close to understanding things.
wondering what is going on in Nana's head. wonder if she can see through the disruption in her body. wonder why i can't help her. hope she understands, hope she knows. i understand she is getting sicker. why is she such a tank? i am overwhelmed by her strength. will i inherit the longevity gene? do i even want to stay around that long?